We all have dreams, things we think we will do, places we want to visit… But what happens, when things don’t go the way you planned?
For those of you who have been with me from the beginning, (I love you guys by the way) you may remember my first post, “A Girl and Her Dream” There I talk about the (unrealistic) dreams I had for my future, most of those dreams will always just be dreams, and to be honest, that life sounds just a little to perfect for me. 😉
But what do you do when the dreams you thought to be real, things you had planned and felt should be God’s will for your life, don’t happen? What if those dreams involve your marriage or your spouse? You know you can change yourself, but maybe, just maybe, in order for the things you planned to happen, some-one else needs to change. Then what do you do?
What do you do when things don’t go the way you planned? I don’t know.
You see, I am a take charge type of person. If I don’t like how something in my life is, I Do Something About It! I didn’t like working all the time, even though I enjoyed my job, so I found something to do that paid better and I could be home more. When I really stop to think about it, there are all these plans that “I” have for “MY” life, and “I” think that’s how it should be.
What a lot of “me” there is in that last paragraph. Want to know what a “take-charge” type of person struggles the most at? Trust. Trust in my husband, and trust in God. I seem to think it easier to try and fix or take care of everything myself, rather than trust the Lord.
Rather than sit back and trust my husband to take care of things, I’m trying to do it all myself. Unfortunately, just as much as I’m a go-getter, hubby is chill and takes things as they come. While that’s not exactly good either, (because he didn’t pay attention to things, he was in debt when we got married) I do wish I could be a little more like him.
I have to wonder, what if I let go of this load I insist on carrying around, what if I calmly told my hubby, the rightful leader of our family that I was no longer taking that load upon myself? What if instead, I daily took it to the Lord? Instead of always thinking “what if?” suppose I started thinking “so what?” So what if we have a kid and then can’t pay the bills? So what if hubby loses his job? So what if…? Perhaps it’s time to “let go and let God”.
So while I’m not one to make new years resolutions or anything like that, (since they tend to only get broken) perhaps for this coming year I need to work on “letting God”. In our Marriage and our lives.
This will be the last Matrimonial Monday for a couple weeks.The 7th of January we will resume and I will feature those who linked up this week. Have a wonderful Christmas my friends.
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